After decades of wanting to learn to play the piano, I finally took a step this past Tuesday and had my first lesson.
I’m glad I waited.
My earlier attempts at learning
When it comes to learning new things, I’m eager to read books and do research. But other kinds of learning can bring out the worst in me.
More than 15 years ago, for example, I wanted to learn to play golf. I bought expensive clubs, went to the driving range to practice, played a lot, and even signed up for a few lessons.
I was terrible. For years.
The worst part, though, was that I couldn’t accept being terrible. I wanted to be good! Being terrible was humiliating and made me miserable. I reacted by trying harder, getting angry, breaking a few clubs, and making my embarrassment that much worse in the process.
With all the joy drained from the game, I lost interest, sold my equipment and decided I just wasn’t cut out for golf.
Older dog. New tricks.
In thinking about piano, I was conscious of the childish boy inside of me, the one so quick to be ashamed when he’s not good at something, ready to throw a tantrum and give up when he doesn’t make progress quickly enough.
But in the past few years, tired of routinely being frustrated and angry, I’ve tried a range of experiments in personal development, and some things have changed since my golfing days.
- I’m not as attached to outcomes.
- I’m not trying to be better than someone else.
- I’ve adopted more of a growth mindset. (I’m not bad at something. I’m just not good at it yet.)
- I’m increasingly embracing what is rather than what clinging to what should be.
- I’ve developed discipline through my writing.
- I have a better understanding of what it takes to learn.
How to learn anything
Understanding what it takes to learn came from my research on changing habits at work and spreading the practice of working out loud. I saw that the most effective approach is taking small steps, practiced over time, with feedback and peer support. (“Guided mastery” is a good phrase.) And I saw how that approach can apply to anything.
So as a reward to myself for publishing the book, I decided to take a step. Instead of just reading about the piano and banging on the keys myself, I asked my daughter’s piano teacher if I could start lessons too. She’s a wonderful teacher, caring and positive and enthusiastic, as well as an incredibly talented pianist and composer. But she usually teaches children.
“Are you serious?” she asked. “I’m ready,” I said.
A miracle on the 23rd floor
And there I was, with mild trepidation, sitting down at the piano, with my daughter right there watching me. My teacher showed me where to place my fingers. “This is middle C.” We took small steps, and she provided encouragement along the way while helping me make occasional adjustments.
By the end of the lesson, I was playing a simple version of Beethoven’s “Ode to Joy.” I couldn’t believe this was me. The music. The calm. The deep sense of fulfillment after wanting for so long and finally – finally! – taking that first step.
The next day, alone in a quiet apartment, I turned on the piano, sat down, and practiced. Even when I made mistakes, I smiled, and I thought, This is going to be fun.